Somebody's mad at me...

My friend recently got engaged on Christmas. I am happy for her. I told her if she needs any help to let me know. Well, I heard from another friend that she doesn't want me anywhere near her wedding because I didn't ask her to be in my bridal party. Oh for real, for real? I never thought I was going to be in her wedding party because we fell out a few years back and we just started talking again last year. I sent her an invite to my wedding and she came. I thought we were straight, but not you're talking behind my back, and to make it worse, she put it on FACEBOOK. I don't know why she felt like I wouldn't see it. That was a dumb ass move. I guess Facebook beef is real... I'm too old for this mess.

So, anyhoo she sends me a text asking me if I had numbers to vendors and what not and I told her she could have all of my wedding magazines, and she could look at my wedding planner because I LIVED in that planner for a year and a half and if has a lot of stuff in it. She then send me a text saying that she will make sure someone is at her house when I drop off the items. Oh really? You ask me for my stuff, then I have to drop it off to you? Why can't you pick it up? Forget that! There is no way that I'm going to drop this stuff off to her. I can't believe the nerve of people nowadays.

I'm turning in for the night. I had a long day. It seems as the weather is getting nicer, my kids are getting worse.

*Le Sigh*

Dieting is for the birds...seriously. I can't stay on a diet for more than a week. From now on I'm going to stop dieting and I'm going to practice eating right. I mean I don;t get it...why do I love food so much? I guess it's not wrong to love food, but I love all the wrong foods. I feel much better when I'm eating better and when I eat bad things, my whole mood changes and I feel down and depressed. That's why I don't understand what is drawing me to bad foods. It's like it's laced with crack, lol. It's addictive.

I am trying another route. I want to take boudoir pics. I was looking at these photographers:

http://studiosinead.com/blog/?tag=michigan-boudoir-photographer

http://www.croftandcampbell.com/#/boudoir---home---michigan-boudoir-photography/


They have really nice pictures. Now, I'm not going to take pictures unless I'm comfortable with my body because I'm not right now. But maybe around Jay's birthday I'll be ready. That will be a nice present for him, lol.

I've Had Enough!

So I've been struggling with this entry since my last entry. I've been kinda depressed because of my weight.

I've had a love/hate relationship with my weight since high school. I've weighed as much as 180 and as little as 126. As of right now, I am 168. It all lies in my stomach and butt. I hate it because I know I am unhealthy and I try to eat right, but I have temptations all around me ALL THE TIME. I mean literally. At work, we have to eat with the kids. I know I don't have to eat a lot, but the cooks (who are professional chefs and the make AWESOME food) always make extra and all my other co-workers eat, so I eat as well. Then my Husband doesn't make it any better. He LOVES fried food and we eat fried food 75% of the time. I know this is so unhealthy, but it just tastes so good!

Last week we decided to go on a diet together. I thought I was doing ok. I started the week off at 171.0 I still ate what I liked, but I cut my portions and got in my water. By Friday, I weighed in at 169.0. Jason weighed his self Friday morning as well and guess how much weight he lost in a week? 12 pounds. 12 freaking pounds! What the hell? I mean, I didn't have any intentions of losing that much weight in a week, but I thought I could've lost more than 2 pounds.

I'n going to do a lot better starting tomorrow. I'm going to cut out fried foods all together and I'm going to eliminate soda. I only drink diet soda, but that still packs on pounds (I just learned that this morning) And I'm going to try to work out twice a week. I have to start somewhere. I hate to sweat. I think that's why Jason lost so much weight. He went to the gym 4 times last week and worked out about 2 hours each day. I'll just pop in a fitness DVD and hope for the best. If I can finish the DVD, that will be an accomplishment for me.

I'm also going to start researching foods that burn calories and cause you to have high metabolism. I think I focus too much on losing weight. I need to get healthy as well. I can do this...I know I can. I just need to stay focused and say no to fattening foods. Wish me luck. I'll try to give a daily report, but I can't make any promises. I hope I have a good diet week. Hopefully when I start taking better care of my body, I will have a more positive attitude and will become stronger both physically and mentally.

Last night, I started doing some research and I found this article. It's called the Flat Stomach Food Guide. I'm going to read it over a bit more and I might try some of the foods on the list.

That's all for today. I need to get back to working on lesson plans :)

In a Slump...

Sorry about the lack of posts this month. I'm in a bit of a slump, but next month should be better. Thank you for the awards :D They made me feel better about my blog!

OH...and look for us in the JET!

Ok, second post of the day! Around the first week of December, my mom sent our wedding picture to JET magazine, well last Monday Jay calls me and said one of his employees saw our picture in it! I was SO excited. I took a pic with my camera phone:




We are the very first picture with the top side caption. YAY for us! It's in the JET with Steve Harvey on the cover. It's from Jan. 19-26th. It will be off the shelves on Monday :( But we had 2 whole weeks up there!!!!!

Ok, ok. I'm gone fr real now, lol.

Happy New Year! (23 days late)

I am so late with this, but happy 2009! I am claiming that this will be my best year ever! I have been trying to focus om my job. It's becoming more and more demanding. I told myself that I would stop taking my work home in 2009 and I ended bringing more work home. That sucks.

I'm still trying to work on my business. I'm thinking about starting it in the summer. I'll have more time to work on projects. Man, I miss wedding projects! I missed the painting and the gluing and the planning.

I will say this: Marriage is hard work! Especially for me. I grew up as an only child and even though Jay and I have been together for 12 years, being married for 4 months has been the hardest things ever. I mean I get mad over the smallest things and I get mad at him for everything. I don't know. I'm one of those women who thought his flaws would disappear once we got married, but I just see them a lot more now. I've been struggling with this for a minute but I bought a book last weekend to help me.

I heard this was a great book for anyone in a relationship. So far, it's good. I just finished up Chapter 1. I hope to finish up Chapter 2 by the end of the weekend if I can sit still long enough.

I also have been cooking a lot more :) Jay appreciates that. Last night I tried one of Rachael Ray's recipes that I found in her latest magazine. I cooked Mozzarella wings and curly fries. Something nice and simple for a weekend. I will be trying more healthy meals for next week.

I'm trying to break Jay's eating habits. I never knew he loved so much fried food! I refuse to blow up and I won't let myself go. I've stopped saying that I'm going to go on a diet because I start a new one every Monday, but instead I've been trying to eat healthier foods and I have cut down my portions a lot. I gained 15 pounds since we've been married and so far I've lost 8 of those. I hope to lost the other 7 by the end of next month. I'm trying to look fit and sexy this summer!

I'm also planning to start working out on Monday...seriously. I ordered a workout DVD and it came today. I can't wait to try it out. I think this is Jillian Michaels recent workout:

...yeah, I need her ABS in my life. I hope this works for me. I need to go and but some weights so I can start toning up my arms.

That's enough for today. I can't spend my entire Saturday in the house. Maybe I'll go to the casino. My mom won $1,000 last night. I wish I could have that kind of luck!

Merry Christmas!!

I'm sure I won't be anywhere near a computer because Me and Jay will be spending our first christmas as husband and wife!!! But I want to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas!!!!!





This is a Christmas pic I took with my class about 3 weeks ago. Happy Holidays!!! Be blessed!